| To a life unwanted... |
[27 May 2004|07:59am] |
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So today I sit trying to do what will make my parents happy but I'm still getting yelled at. So I feel the only good thing for everyone is to end my existance, or at least leave. This is not the first time I have contemplated such an unforgiving thing. I mean, yes, I will go to hell if I kill myself because it's an unforgiven sin, but if it will make everyone happier if I am gone then so be it. I would give up my happiness for eternity just to see my family happy and releived. And I don't think this will happen with me around.
I just think this might be it... my time. There's no future for a highschool failure. I've graduated... I thought my life would be perfect when I graduated, but it's not. Noone's is, and all because I was born. And the only reason I'm writing this in LJ is because noone will read this, so whther or not I kill myself is not a problem of anyone elses. i just really wish that everyone knows it's not their fault if I do or do not do the deed. I'm a sick person, I've always been sick...
Hell can't be that bad, right?
So I still don't know... I have to think about it. I desperately want to so everyone will be happy, but there's this selfish part of me that wants to live...
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[24 Mar 2004|12:17am] |
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What to say?
The play was awesome last night. I was so proud of everyone who participated! Yay! My mother and I shall go to the Sunday show.
Tomorrow is the big Plano doll show. I wanted to go to Mini-con and wake up at a decent hour, but noooo I have to wake up at 2:00 AM in the morning to go to a doll show. Yucky I tell you, yucky! No cute guys to flirt with, course there really aren't any at Mini-con either. Lol. Man I'm sick to my stomache...
I think I saw that Savvie chick last night at the play. I was nice though. I waved. Promise! lol. Haha, she was kind of snotty though, so I dun know if it was her or not, probably was though (snotty = Savvie) lol.
I had so much fun last night though! It was kickass seeing all my friends acheive something that amazing! I was kinna sad that I didn't get to be in it... but... I was dreadfully ill. Oh well.
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| Since last I saw you, dear LJ |
[22 Mar 2004|03:01pm] |
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It has been so long since I've updated this hunk of junk for a LJ. I look back on the months and cringe.
I've been involved in some bad things, alchohal, marjuana, and making out with boys that... well, let's leave that alone.
I'm just happy that I've finally found god. I know it sounds so cliche' to say, but I've seriously found a friend I can deoend on, and I love it. Every night I feel better just talking to Jesus and telling him all of my problems. He forgives us all for our sins, heck he even died for our sins.
It's a crazy feeling realising you were right about people all these years, but... compassion is what you really, truly need. Compassion is forgiveness, and I forgive everyone. Even Lucy. We all make mistakes and we all get hurt. But what seperates us from the bad people is forgiveness. I have found that holding grudges is what has held me down all these years.
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[22 Feb 2004|12:40am] |
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Oh my goodness gracious I'm updating my LJ. I am suprisingly able to type... Sean and I spent three hours hanging out, smoking pot, playing video games, and smoking more pot. I feel all good and cozy inside.
Relationships have passed and new friends have come and gone. I learned that not all gays are cool, or nice, and infact they can be quite the bitches at times. I learned how to stop guilt tripping people. I learned not to worry about the two stupid girls on LJ that tried to control everything I typed. They don't read this, so fuck you LU and Savannah. You guys were just stupid and mean! YAY!
I've learned how to repect myself.. And maybe I can have a hot guy like Sean... or maybe I'll still be angry at Bryan for lying to me and never want another relationship. Who the hell knows... He fucking told me he wasn't over me, so i was like, cool, maybe we'll get back together and he goes and dates the slutiest, youngest girl possible... -_-() ass... that stung. but wtf, who gives a shit about highschool romance.. I hope I won't always be lonely... Woot, I smell like pot, and I'm going to bed~ Night all!
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| UPDATES! |
[28 Jan 2004|10:52pm] |
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Not an actual update but an update just to say I'm happy ^__^
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[12 Jan 2004|04:39pm] |
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::dusts off LJ:: Wow, it's been sort of a while since I've updated here. I've been updating regularly on Xanga. ::coughs:: bleh! Anyhoo, I thought I'd update for the sake of the two people that read this, lol. I'm not going to be updating this one anymore but you can catch me at therealeno at Xanga page ^_____^. Right at this very moment I'm practicing my singing... geh. It's hard to breath while singing... I do sound damn good though. I think I'll actually have a chance of getting a semi good part. I want to be Audrey, the main girl, but I doubt Mrs. Seefeldt would be that kind. lol. My voice just cracked.... damnit. lol I'm gonna go practice!
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| HALLELIUA!!!!!!!!!!! |
[30 Dec 2003|02:49am] |
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I probably spelled that worng, but I'm just so happy!!! This is now my LJ again, I'm soooo happy! I can write whatever the fuck I want now!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Anyhoo down to buisness... I really don't think I should write this after another attack from Savvanah. Yes I understand you want your fansubs back I've been trying to give them back forever now. Don't have to call me a bitch just cause I don't want you to come and get them! bwahahahahahahaha she doesn't read this anymore, happy days. Now like I said onto buisness.
Cleaning tables at Arbys gives you alot of time to think about things, or even worry about them. I've finally had time out of my schedule to relax.. even if I am at work while doing it. But I didn't relax. I got very depressed. It's no biggy because I laugh about it now but this is what bothers me. Everyone thinks I'm the bad guy. What, am I supposed to put up with everyone walking all over me? No,that's what I thought. Anyways let's start at the beginning. Julia Morrison and Rachel Hicks. 6th grade. I treat them like the mightiest goddesses(stupid Eno) they decide they're too popular for me and told me to leave them alone. They actually wrote in a note "Sarah.. we're to popular to hang out with you, you embarrass us." lol I cried my eyes out. How could people be so mean? Next was Lucy. She was a long time offender. Sure there were times when I absolutely LOVED her. But everyone once in a while she'd call me fat or say my drawings weren't pretty. It builds up after a while. I put up wqith it for.. five years I believe. Finally I snapped and decided not to be around her anymore. I became the bad guy who hurt her feelings and stole her friends. No Lucy, I just got smart. Nothing botherd me for a long time until Junior year. Lu... I held her in the highest regards, hell I even looked up to her but she did some things that botherd me. I get a boyfriend. My first ever. She tells me she likes him. I get depressed. Don't tell her I'm depressed. She sits in between bf and myself I tell her and she literally shoves me in my chair at him and doesn't talk to me for a long time. I feel like such a bitch. But why? Cause she's a little jealous? My happiness didn't last with bf, he beat the shit out of me. Yes you've heard the sad story many a time. I had bruised ribs because of him the fucker. So Lu, you can have him :wink:. She then "forgives" me and becomes my friend again. I'm very happy again. I tell her I'm having problems with Jessa, she tells Jessa and the have an "intervention". She moves, I'm sad because I still think she's like my best friend. Oh I even forgot how she told me Kati didn't want to be my friend anymore because of some stupid reason that I believed like the idiot I am. I had a fight with Kati over that! Kati's and my first ever fight! Anyways, she moves. I call her a couple of times. I tell her secrets somehow everyone knows. I tell her I like Roarke and somehow he finds out. misterious? I think not. lol He told me he knew already. He said Lu told him before she moved. I wasn't really mad about it though... it was too late. Jon.. a short termed boyfriend who informed me that Lu told him about Jericho and he said it was pure reason to stop dating. I wasn't broken hearted but a little preterbed. Still I think she's my bestest friend in the whole widest of oceans. Time passes and I get a crush on an online friend. She then decides she wants to go out and meet him. I'm self concious and I figure he'd end up liking her instead of me so I flat out told her I wanted one online friend to myself. Exact words. You can even read her journal. She gets offended that I think that way about her decides not to be my friend anymore. Geh.. I had reasons. Anyways.. I wish she could read this cause she's actually one of the few people I miss, even if she did tell all my secrets. lol we had some fun times. She was such a cool person. I even saved alot of her art work that she gave to me. She hates me now all because she got offended over me standing up for myself. Once again I'm proclaimed the bad guy and I just don't know what to do about that but just let her go. I'd forgive her.. or maybe I wouldn't. I don't know anymore. Next was Jo. Once again this was someone I thought I was getting super close with. I was like "wow, I have a great friend" She was so happy and cute. Who knew that she held such hatred for me? She said I talked behind her back and called her bitch. Maybe I did, I don't know anymore. Actually I do know, I said nothing of the sort. I said nothing of praise for her. Sure she got on my nerves once and a while but I thought she was the sweetest caring person. She too has made me cry. I once again am the villain. The horrible evil monster who wasted a whole semester of her life while I thought she was my friend. Last but not least Savie. By now I could care less about these pointless LJ fights that always end in me crying. I don't know why I bother updating anymore. I always say I'll stop but it's just an addiction to my keyboard and icons. Well, i don't really know how this fight with Savie started. I believe it was her sticking her nose into the fight with Lu and I. I was on the defensive and feelings got hurt so now I'm a satanic biotch who hurts everyone. I do take these things to heart people. You may not, but I do. I'm just glad none of them will read this...
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| To whom it concerns |
[24 Dec 2003|03:31pm] |
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Please quit using my LJ as a battle area. It is a distinct miss use of the web site and it's quite... obnoxious getting e-mail informing me that two parties are having an argument about ME, when I haven't even participated in the arguments to begin with. Quit trying to run my life. Please. Quit fighting my battles. Please. Just leave me the hell alone. If the LJ offends you don't read it. Also the partie's names shall not be mentioned because they jolly well know who they are. And i might also inform them that this counts as harassment and if they do not desist with said insulting I will call their 'mommy' and inform the parent of the obsenities and hell their child is putting me through just because I'm happy with my life. Another interesting fact: Someone standing up for another doesn't mean they are 'whipped', it just means they know I don't stand up for myself. I'm doing so now. I'm tired of you people taking me for granted. I am not a door mat anymore. I have had it with this drama that you people have induced on my somewhat happier LJ. This is my LJ, I've said it before and I had better not be forced to say it again. It's freedom of speech in a way. If you can't take it, move!
Anyhoo, I'm in and uber good mood due to the fact that I made some yummy gingerbread men made from scratch! YUMMY!!! I'm going to go enjoy my Christmas eve, you guys should do the same, get off your buts and celebrate Christmas with our family instead of trying to ruin someone elses. Good night and Merry Christmas because I won't be on tomorrow ^____^
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[23 Dec 2003|08:55pm] |
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I think I'm FINALLY finished with all my X-mas shopping. Yayness... oh shit... no, no I'm not I still have a couple more gifts to buy. Oh wow. This is the best part of X-mas though. Giving gifts!! I could care less about how much I get as long as everyone likes the gifts I got for them. If that makes since. I like for others to be happy ^___^ As long as others are happy I'm cool.
I'm talking to Roarke. Genkiness, haven't talked to him since semi formal, lol. Not that he's saying much now.... -_-()
Haven't really, really talked to Bryan since Saturday... I think he's moving into his apartment! Yay for Bryan. He'll be away from Tony's satanic mother... Poor Tony... and Anna... geh!! Poor kids! But he's moving out, so good for him.
Also talking to Louie... which is interesting. But I won't get into that. Also talking to Diane and J! Yay yay yay... fun chatter ratter group.
YAY CHRISTMAS EVE IS TOMORROW
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[22 Dec 2003|09:05pm] |
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Everything in *() are my comments
You have a lot to offer, dear Leo. Everyone really does appreciate who you are and what you have to contribute.(PUH!) Yet you have been unable to give yourself credit for all that you've accomplished.(true...) It would be worthwhile for you to take some time contemplating why this is so.(Because people don't trust my desicisions) You have a strong need to be loved,(duh) but you must first love yourself.(take me dahling!!!) Yes, we know it's a cliche to say;(no shit...) nevertheless you know it is true.(damn you truthfullness) Your family(yes.. this is true) and friends(puh I say, PUH!) will support you, but first you must support yourself. -(I will....)
Also... this goes out to poor Katie, a girl who suffers from seizures(sp?) she has just gotten sicker and sicker and I don't think her time on this planet is much longer. I know this is something most agnostics wouldn't say.. but pray for her. She deserves to live longer then just 16 years. It's Christmas right, and Christmas is the time for miracles! The reason I know her is she was in my third hour class(the one where I help the kids with dissabilaties at my school). Please pray for her, if not for me, for her poor family.
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[21 Dec 2003|09:57pm] |
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I've had an interestingly great, yet depressing week and weekend. But I'm not going into that, cause it's none of anyone's buisness, lol.
I have strep throat! YAY!! lol, just kidding. I do have strep though. And I'm so used to being sick all the time that I can function very well with a temp. of 101 lol. I did take a nice long nap and my room is being cleaned out so I can be moved ^___^. My mom made me go take a nap for a couple of hours and I return to find my room's floor practically spotless. And they found my school ring!!! ::dances::
I have all my X-mas shopping complete. I'm very pleased. I actually spent like... $60.00 on each parent this year! so $120.00. lol aren't I proud of myself? hehe I just finally feel like I've been able to get my parents the Christmas they deserve. They have more presents then me under the tree this year! Ain't that awesome?! I hope they like the presies. ^________^ Genki!
Christmas should be fun this year even if it is strep filled and Dawnless.
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| For those of you who wonder how my day went.... lol |
[18 Dec 2003|10:03pm] |
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My day was amusing to say the least. I had a fairly nice day. First hour was fun due to the fact that we got to go to Skyline to see the third graders perform in a play. It was cute!!! Very funny also, the kids were very good actors. Precious!!!
Second hour was rush for me... I completed two paintings in the remainder of the hour... So I'll manage to just barely scrape by with an A. I was stressing out major over this. On came out very spiffy... the other... eh.
I had an ok lunch... Mostly boring. Talked to Meridith and Steven(Manda's lil' bro). They're both fun to talk to so I enjoyed myself. Talked to Cati Thompson for a smidgen, she cracks me up!
Third hour was fun. Did inventory with George, Justin, and Lauree. George cracks me up. He kept saying "I quit!" then proceeded to do his job anyways, sometimes not even letting Justin count. I got Justin cought up on his homework. I was very proud of him, he did it so fast. He read all of his sight words and he even understood the new ones. The Christmas party is tomorrow and I'm sooo excited! All the peer advocates and diabled kids are going to Cicis to eat pizza and give out secret santa gifts. It'll be fun.
Fourth hour was great cause we're watching everyones movies and critiquing them. It's very interesting! I love the ideas everyone had.
Got home and drove around for a bit with my mom. I only killed the engine once this time. I did scare my mom by how much control I had over the car in suck high speeds ::evil grin:: She did say I'd gotten much better but she still doesn't want me going out into trafic in the standard. I had a hard time getting it to shif into 3rd at times. It gets stuck quite often and I lose control over the car. I should have my license by the end of the break though, so I'll be driving to school! GO ME! lol. I'm not scared of driving anymore.
At 6:30 I went back to Skyline to watch some kids for a parent support group or children with disabilities. It was fun. Only two kids showed up. Matthew(who is in my third hour, awesome kid) and Jacob a 5 year old. He was so cute, a little spoiled, but cute. I ended up being there until 9:00 even though I was supposed to get out at 8:00 -_-()
Side note- My mom is thouroughly pissed off right now... I geuss I need to delete the messages I get from people because she was listening to my messages and overheard Savvie's message. She was not happy at all and started screaming about profanity and proper phone useage or something like that. She then proceeded to question me about wether I'd been talking to her or not and I said not really.. cause I haven't been except for some nasty little comments she sent my way. My mom yelled and screamed until she read them. Now this is where it gets bad. Apparently my mom doesn't "appreciate" this kind of foul language and attitude and threatend to call Savvie's mom. I refused to tell my mother her last name, so she grabbed my cell phone only to find her number not on there. She said something about if I ever get another nasty message like that she's calling he mom or the police. Now this is ridiculous. Sure Savie's immature, but the police? Oh well... I know to delete phone messages now. See, lesson learned! ^_____^
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[17 Dec 2003|08:12am] |
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Hehe, yesterday was fun! I did get punched in the back... again but all is well, bruises heal damnit! lol. I ate lunch with Kenny and Elizabeth I believe... I just remember not many people being there due to the fact that Amanda was missing for some odd reason. And everyone else just dispersed... I don't know the rest of the "table group" very much but they all seem fairly cool. my painting of Katie Tompson is turning out beautifully! This is due to help from Mrs. Webber. Lol, I broke a paint brush in half due to the complete frustration this painting was butting me through. GAH. But she helped alot. And Elizabeth's painting is turning out beautifully. It looks just like her. So talented!! lol no fair! I want so of that talent, not this cartoon stuffers. lol. First hour was fun too. Rory and I went over our duet for a little bit which is somewhat fun even though I seem to forget this ONE FREAKING LINE!!! GAH. But oh wellers. Rory always helps me remember so it's all good. I hope she's not getting frustrated. lol. I know I would. Also there's a new boy and he's so adorable!!! He's a little EMO kid and I wanna take him under my wing. But yeah... it was funny all of us were like "new kid? where?!?" lol and Amy "BOY!!!!" lol. Amy's so adorable. Everyone's monolouges turned out so cool and mine are kind of blah... well, eccept for my dramatic. I start to cry when i do it. It's cool. I might actually turn into a decent actor. Third hour was alittle lack lustre but we got to pick out who our secret santa was and I got Clint! Bryan and I went to a thrift store and bought him this little toy thing... it's like a drum and stuffers. Fourth hopur was awesome!! Mariah, Becky, and my movie is coming together sooooo well. It's hilarious. Except for my part but oh well. Bad day when we filmed it. I looked like crap, but it was still fun filming with Dillon. He's hilarious. Also yesterday was my mommy's b-day! She loved all of her gifts! I was very pleased, and last nights concert rawked! I had sooo much fun. Diane and Kieli are very fun to hang out with. Maby not together because Diane has a loud mouth and Kieli's very quiet but it all worked out cool. I hope Kieli had fun. I kept leaving to see if I could find some water that wasn't 2.00!!! And also I found myself talking to the bands more then wathcing them. They all are pretty cool people. hehe. So I've had a good day and I have a feeling this one won't suck. lol. Life Rawks!!! hehehehehehe
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Why do I still fucking care what people say to me or about me when I could care less about them in general? Why do I let people walk all over me and take me for granted? Why did I have a nightmare about Bryan and I breaking up? Why am I crying right now? Wy are people who aren't my friends commenting on my LJ's just to be the assholes I mentioned? And really, why are they still reading my LJ? I stopped reading theirs. Why is there such a thing as bigotry and why is it often reversed? Why do I only have 8 hours this week? Why do I find this holiday meaningless all of a sudden? Why do people think it's important to say that I'm stupid on a regular basis or indicate so? Why do I have such an inferiority complex? Why do I put myself down all the time? Why do I say sorry all the time even when it's not my fault? Why do people pretend to commit suicide? Why do I always blame myself for friendships falling apart? When in actually it it was the dumb fuck who stopped being my friend in the first place over some stupid reason that only god knows why. So why do I still care? When in actuallity they are the ones who should feel bad.
Life's just funny that way I geuss...
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| My life at this moment... |
[14 Dec 2003|12:51am] |
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is... pleasent! Yes people you heard correctly Eno is somewhat happy for once, even with certain people commenting on her Livejournal more then once vaguley fighting with wits. Scary? Read last LJ entrie's comments and you'll see what I'm talking about -_-(). Eh' who cares. I caint spall aithar. lol. Just to annoy Bryan ^_____^. I WUV U!!!!! muhahhaaha. Erin kidnapped me after my 5 1/2 hour shift today and took me to her house to watch Nightmare Before X-mas on DvD. We spent most of the time watching Oingo Boingo live which was AWESOME!!! They rule!!! WOOT!! Dl piggie by oingo boingo. It's hilarious. Or run away by the same group(my fave so far by them). Any hoo...I either want Bryan to randomly show up at my house, call me again(left cellphone at home -_-() sorry hun), or get his skinny arse online!!! lol. ::dances around:: I have to work 11:00 AM-3:00PM tomorrow then I don't work again till Friday which I wouldn't even be working that if it hadn't been for Lizbeth whom willingly gave me some of her hours. I only had four hours down for next week.... DAMN THE DUMBFUCK AARON!!!!!!!! DAMN HIM!!!!!! I'll only get a 160.00 pay check for these two weeks... on the 15th I'm only getting 115.00... dissapointed much. -_-() hard work little pay. I can't save for an automatic on this kind of money... ::sighs:: Also I was planning on spending that 160 towards a winter wardrobe due to the fact I only have two long sleeved shirts. Oh me, I'm exhausted... have a bunch of messages on my phone... on from Savvie asking me to hang out? Wow.. I'm so confuzzled.
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[09 Dec 2003|10:13pm] |
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I thought I'd update a smiden. First off I'd like to state that it has snowed and will most likely freeze over(crosses fingers) which means.. anyone? Yes, that's correct, NO SCHOOL! Which means a)more time with mah Bryan, b)a chance to go over the list of people I need to get things for, c)drink hot coacoa with my bf and watch Christmas movies. I'm hoping it'll work out the way I want it too. I mean, yeah, sure I'm working with Bryan now but I tend to distance away from him at work. I become severly awkward around him when I just wanna reach out and huggles him. I also realised today that I hate it when people think you're doing something wrong but you really do know what you're doing but I don't bother arguing about it cause I'm tired.... Happend alot today.
Went to Mock Trial today!! WOOT! Lol, yay for Lincoln. On the way out of SHS Amanda and I saw Jenny. I waved and said "hi Jenny" She then proceeds to throw down her backpack and list her shirt and come running towards us. I'm thinking she's going to attack me but instead... and this is the funny part, she attacks Amanda. Pulling her hair and hitting her in the face. I just stood there in shock for a few minutes and then I laughed. I don't really know why I laughed... but I did.
Third hour was just as eventful. As many of you know I am a peer advocate for special ed at the highschool and Ryan Cowan's bro is in that class. First I'd like to state that, that kid is strong as an ox. Now... He decides he's not going to do his work and starts to throw a fit! He hit me like twice threw a shelf desk thing across the room and threw a little desk at Casey of whom is in a wheelchair and if she hadn't had her back to him the desk probably would have broken her legs. Complete chaos.
Mer.. the rest of my day wasn't all that eventful. I miss Bryan alot, so I shall now go sit on my bed alone and watch cartoons like the loser I am. lol I heart you Bryan!
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[08 Dec 2003|08:28am] |
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So... Semi Formal generally sucked. I'm happy Highschool is almost over. Three more months. I did get some awesome pictures and everyone looked cool, including me, damnit. Even if Erich said my dress looked slutty -_-(). Bryan liked my dress ^___^. That made me happy. I left Semiformal early to hang out with Bryan and I got to drive his car. It's an automatic and soooooo much easier to drive then a standard. I drove perfectly.. almost, but you know this was like... the fourth time I had driven. We talked a whole lot that night too. It was nice. Didn't get home until 1:30 but it was well worth the time with Bryan.
Woke up at like... 10:00 to go to work which sucked even more cause I most definentally screwed everything up. Lol. Bryan came by to pick me up and I got to drive his car over to Boomer and ate some lunch. Apparently I'm not opening up enough to him and I feel bad about that. I just have this wall up due to my ass hole friends I've had in the past. It takes me a while to truly open up and I geuss this is bothering him -_-(). He's already getting tired of me. Anyways, we went to my house and decorated for X-mas. That was nice. I had fun, and now the house looks somewhat X-massy! ^___^
Well... I gotta go put some makeup on for school...byeee
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| First kisses and mock trials -_-() |
[04 Dec 2003|04:19pm] |
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Lol. Yeah... mer. Bryan and I kissed last night. I feel bad that he wasted his first kiss on me, but I'm happy at the same time. I really heart him!!! He's such a sweet heart. I just love being around him, even if he doesn't talk very much. I talk way to much... especially last night, lol. Poor guy had to put up with my rants and tirades. He's a great guy and he's totally adorable! I can't wait to hang out with him again!!! :huggles:
Well today I woke up exhausted and sick... again. So I went back to bed only to have my mom run into my room at like... 9:20 telling me to get up and go to school even after dad had said I could stay home. I went to school and right away Amanda reminds me about mock trial so we hop into a car with Mr. Feilds and he takes us to Lincoln... I was a little nervous. But I saw alot of my buddies! ^____^. Lol. So Mock Trial sounds like alot of fun and I get to miss class for it, so it's all good ^_^.
Have a shortend lunch due to mock trial meeting and go into Mrs. Webber's room to catch up on my paintings. It's gonna be cool, I have all these different facial exspressions, I need one of Bryan and Katai. It's got alot of my friends in it. I hope it turns out cute!
Go to third hour and hang out there with the special ed kids... they crack me up! Especially George. He kept saying Lauree and I were his "women" I never laughed so hard.
Fourth Hour was cool. Becky, Mariah and I worked on our movie. It's looking very good. Becky is getting to be a pro at all this technical stuff that I can't do! So jealous! I get to be in Mike's group next I believe which should be awesome cause he comes up with the funniest ideas ever. Pacman... yeah, you had to be there. Mike, George and Jo's looks pretty neat so far even if they have only done prelim. stuff on it. It's looking pretty nice. Jealous for sure! hehe. I'm more into the acting side then computer side. Even though I love the whole process the movie's take to be made. It's alot harder then it looks!
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[03 Dec 2003|04:23pm] |
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Sorry, that song's just been stuck in my head all day and has nothing much to do about this entry...
Wow ok, so on a somewhat rant somewhat amusing topic. If someone says they hate you, think you're annoying and call you names and basically treat you like preverbial shit for like... two weeks and then decide to be nice all of a sudden, does that mean they're over themselves? Cause this is somewhat confusing for me. It sorta irritates me. She hurt me so much and now she's talking to me and being nice. I'm relieved that she's not saying mean things behind my back and whatnot but... wtf?! What happend to "she's a bitch, she said mean things behind my back that hurt my poor feelings, and she's ruined my life for a whole semester!?" So yeah now I don't know what to be towards her. I'm gonna be nice... but not friendly if you know what I mean. I won't trust her again for a looooong time. But oh well.
Mer... I miss bryan :(. I haven't seen him in a while! I wanted him to come and see the play but I was told only parentals could come. So yeah...
The play went ok today. I had fun since the audiance was lil' ones! muchos fun stuffs. I did mess up on a line but it was apparently coverd up well. I adlibbed!!! Yay for Eno!!!
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| Love can be fun! |
[01 Dec 2003|08:43pm] |
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EEEEE I'm just so happy!!! Even if I did faint in first hour. I heart my Bryan ::cuddles him tight:: muah! hehe. Watching X-mas movies all day.
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